The Art of Procrastination

Procrastination, a facet of my life that I excell at. But maybe just maybe the log jam is about to break, at least I have finally written a letter to a former co-worker that has been languishing beside the computer for about 11 months. Now maybe I can write a couple of more letters and get back into the appropriate frame of mind to write in the Tomb.

I have taken to creating a list of things to do in a steno notebook - a list of things I need to do for myself - does not include things I do for others. So far I am up to six pages of things to do, investigate or other wise accomplish. I suppose I could put the list here, but why would I and who would be interested in reading it?

I'm frustrated...physically and mentally and I need to release. When it comes down to it - I don't really know what I want or have ever wanted out of "Life". I've kept things hidden inside me for so long that I've lost it. Lost my soul, my "me". Maybe lost is too strong a word, perhaps I have misplaced it...like Anthony Quinn says to the Doctor, the wife of the Reporter when she questions him about Love etc in the movie The Shoes of the Fisherman...he says words to the effect that perhaps Love is not lost just misplaced and that all she has to do is find it once more...so maybe I haven't lost my "me", just misplaced it and have find it to truly know what will make me happy and content.

Christmas Indecisions

Today, the day after Thanksgiving the "official" start of the Christmas shopping season, only I don't have to participate. All year long I have been hinting and at times requesting that no gift exchanges occur between me and others...sort of a one man effort to cut down on the stress and hassle of finding that "perfect" gift for each person. Last year there were close to 20 or so people on my list, now that is down to about 7. Plus those 7 will be simple, in fact most are already done. I've tried to cut back (well being unemployed/retired) one has to make sacrifices and limit the gift giving to kids and a select few. Calendars - National Geographic - are great gift ideas that last all year and are relatively easy, that and Yankee Candles and of course for the kids US Savings Bonds. And there you have it...no hassles...it is all done.

Then why am I beginning to feel an urge to splurge? Probably all the Thanksgiving hype/Christmas Sales and the effort of the Retail Establishment to brainwash us into thinking if you don't shop and spend, spend, spend, then you are not celebrating Christmas. Well I'm resisting that idea and will seek to celebrate Christmas in my own way...now to deal with the issue of decorating the house, putting up a tree and so forth. May put out some decorations in the house, but may not put up the tree...limited space and well, it is time consuming to put it up and then take it down after...a ceramic Christmas Tree may have to suffice this year.

Turkey Day

Turkey Day!!!

37 degrees outside right now, down from a high of 61 at 2:00am. Raining too, though they expect that to change to lake effect snow by late afternoon, probably about the time I sit down to eat.

Ahhh, winter is coming, snow, sleet and ice.

OK OK I know that this is lame. Now that I have created this Blog I need to learn how to use it and how to voice my until now "silent" opinions and thoughts.

Early Morning Insomnia

Ever have one of those nights? Of course you have, everyone does at one time or another. Only I wasn't until the phone rang at 12:03 am EST. The winter Texans calling from Florida and wanting to talk which wasn't bad, it was good to hear from them and both sounded well or at least they seemed to be over their colds etc and were having a good time ... now though I'm thinking of where to look for the keys they need and the rest, more things to look for and send on if found and of course a night of sleepless tossing and turning, the mind whirring for one thought to another ... money ... life ... home ... things to do and the end result is that everything is still there, still unfinished the next morning.

Thoughts of stories, twists and turns, all in my head all at once and none written on paper or the computer...maybe, just maybe I'll remember enough to spark my creative juices and finally write that long overdue post in the Tomb.

Oh well, I guess we'll start all over tomorrow and maybe just maybe get something done...at least my vacuuming and my dishes are done and tomorrow/today is Thanksgiving - Turkey Day - and I shall spend it among family.